lauren

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 08:40:40 GMT

MY HAMSTER DIED.

i accomplished absolutely nothing this summer
and pretty much wasted all of it.

& if i'm nervous i won't show it
my words still come out right
i'm the most impressive product
around.

um
the end.

Tue, 13 Jun 2006 01:40:17 GMT

vacation
is in two days
woo

summer is good
kind of boring
lots of babysitting
bleh.

this is because i can spell confusion with a k
it's hard to like it
it's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
it's to jimmy eat world
& those nights in my car
but this time i'm alone
and i don't see those stars
i'm not your star

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 04:54:53 GMT

i want to have the same last dream again
the one where i wake up & i'm alive
just as the four walls close me within
my eyes are opened up with pure sunlight
i'm the first to know
my dearest friends
even if your hope has burned with time
anything that's dead shall be re-grown
& your vicious pain
your warning sign
you will be fine
hey oh here i am
& here we go
life's waiting to begin.

Thu, 08 Jun 2006 20:41:14 GMT

so panic! came last night
it was fabulous
as usual.

after the show
i met greta from the hush sound
she's pretty much my hero
it was amazing.

vacation in six days
i don't have anything
to write about anymore.

Wed, 07 Jun 2006 23:21:21 GMT

PANIC!
is tonight
i'm leaving in
like 30 minutes
by myself
haha
yayy

Sun, 04 Jun 2006 03:16:42 GMT

& if i die in my sleep
are you still willing
to be everything you
promised you would be?

vacation is soon
panic! comes sooner
yay :]

promise yourself
that this isn't
all we've got

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 02:32:33 GMT

yesterday was my birthday
so now i'm 15
yeahh

vacation with ari is soon
i'm pretty excitedd

sometimes songs on my playlist
come on over & over
so i'm like
wow its a sign
and i try to figure out what it means
because i'm pretty cool like that.

yeah twice is nice
but three times is just right

oh yeah,
i get to meet pete.

tomorrow is june
which means
panic!, greeley, & vacation

yesterday the rocket summer was here
i forgot to get a ticket though

ari, luke, & kristen took me to the movies
for my birthday
we saw stick it, it was pretty good
plus luke got me a over the hedge stuffed animal
its the little racoon
& a hello kitty coloring book :]

Sun, 28 May 2006 00:31:22 GMT

last night
kristen ari kyle & i
watched a really sad movie
we didn't cry though.

i'm watching my sister
and i totally forgot i was
making macaroni & cheese
haha

my birthday is in 3 days
15 babyy

arianna & i leave for vacation
in 18 days
panic! comes in 11
yayy

i think in decimals and dollars
i am the cause to all your problems

so far summer is good
my hamster bit me 4 times today
stupid.

new icon
old picture
kind of.

Thu, 25 May 2006 04:57:00 GMT

school is finally out.

i have to reset my password
on this thing each time i
log in becuase i always forget
what it is.

summer is going
to be amazing
hopefully.

right now i'm
exhausted

i got an a on most
of my finals
i'm pretty impressed.

i'm going to go
watch a movie.
goodnight

oh yeah, p.s.
i'm getting a new cell phone
FINALLY

look, i finally used the music thing.

Wed, 17 May 2006 02:58:32 GMT

this place was never the same again
after you came & went
how can you say you meant
anything different to anyone
standing alone on the street
with a ciggarette on the
first night we met
look to the past
and remember and smile
and maybe tonight i breathe
for a while i'm not
in this scene i think
i'm falling asleep
but then all that it
means is i'll always
be dreaming of you.

Mon, 15 May 2006 03:53:33 GMT

& today was a day just like any other

i found a letter that said
i'm sorry that you were asleep
when i wrote these words down
you'd think i ought to be
used to that by now

sticks and stones, love

this isn't like us anyway

we're gonna die like this
you know
miserable and old

slip into the tragedy

well my love is not a bank statement.

Sun, 14 May 2006 07:30:17 GMT

sometimes i wonder if
that when i actually do grow up
i'll regret that i wasted my childhood
wishing my youth away

anyways
i failed my last math test
& got a c on my last spanish one
oh fabulous

can we pretend
to leave & then
we'll meet again
when both our cars collide

my chemical romance
is lovely.

arianna
thinks i'm shallow
& that livejournals
are for attention whores.

i didn't go to school yesterday
i helped dad move instead.

panic! comes in 24 days
its sold out
i know no one else
with tickets.

so far this year
i've destroyed:
2 cell phones
2 ipods
2 relationships
4 binders
1 backpack
1 digital camera
2 chairs
& a calculator
aren't you proud?

i get bored of things
so easily.

alright, bed now.

Wed, 10 May 2006 23:23:49 GMT

finally
i'm letting go of all my downer thoughts
in no time there'll be one less sad robot
looking for a chance to be something
more than just metal

next, please

Tue, 09 May 2006 04:23:45 GMT

school is almost out
finally

i know i won't miss school itself
and i'm beginning to doubt
i'll miss anything else about it either.

i always wished that you would listen

right now i feel like
screaming really loud
maybe i will
go outside & see if you can hear me.

a very cute boys said:
"When you add up all the pros and cons-
whichever side of the list you are on always wins."

i think he's brilliant
but of course i do.

_edit
actually, i do hate you
not really.
dislike you
okay.

today was our last play in drama
i'm going to miss that
but i think that's all

HEY
it's not going to happen.

Mon, 08 May 2006 06:14:08 GMT

if i hear your name one more time i think i'm going to be sick.
i am very tired of all of this.

also, i hate you
a lot
except not.

if we could both find a way
to do the things that we say
we might not sit in our rooms
and drink our daydreams away.

i wonder how stupid you think we are.
& i wonder when
i'll have to paint my room.

Sun, 07 May 2006 05:08:27 GMT

p.s. patricks birthday was april 27
he's twenty-two now.

i really like music
i don't do sports
i want to grow up
so i'm old enough
to fall in love.

i'm afraid to get old
and i don't want to die.

i don't like to judge people;
label them
it makes me mad.

arianna & i discovered
gmail chat
it turns your smiley faces over
so they're right way up
and not like this: :]
its so amazing.

i'm trying to think of how
to explain something
but i can't
sometimes i get so scared
to do something
and even though i probably should
i don't.
maybe that's kind of it.

i just wanna break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you say.

Wed, 03 May 2006 04:15:06 GMT

THE TRUTH IS

i've never fallen so hard.

Sun, 30 Apr 2006 00:11:03 GMT

last night we watched hostel
it was one of the worst movies i've ever seen.
there was about 2 scary parts
the special effects were horrible
& it was almost as stupid as the grudge.
haha yepp

other than that
this week has been fun.
except not

[+] jari's {and patrick's!} birthday was on thursday

thats when you
stststutter something profound
to the support on the line
& with the way you've been talking
every word gets you a step
closer to hell.

[-] off the top of my head i can think of
three reasons why my week sucked.

i get the rest of my braces on tuesday
woo?

_edit
and theres a drug in the thermostat
to warm the room up and theres
another around to help us bend
your trust i've got a sunset
in my viens and i need to take
a pill to make this town
feel okay the best part
of believe is the lie
i hope you sing along and you're
still alive i need to keep
you like this in my mind
so give in or just give up.

Fri, 28 Apr 2006 05:37:00 GMT

right now
i don't know.

isn't that fabulous.

mm

Sun, 23 Apr 2006 06:47:46 GMT

live journal amuses me.

yesterday victoria & arianna came over
we played sims
and made a pretty fantastic family.
then we did other stuff
like walking to the park
and watching a movie.
we told scary stories
that weren't really scary.
and this morning we had
chocolate chip pancakes.

i had to go to ariannas today
and download a bunch of stuff on her new computer
because she didn't know how.
then i took a shower
and we ate dinner

tonight we went to the red letter may show
it was pretty neat.
then we all went to wendys
& then me arianna stephen and austin went to lukes
luke put my shoe down his pants
but overall it was pretty fun.

Wed, 12 Apr 2006 22:50:07 GMT

haha
just to let you know
panic! at the disco comes
in 56 days
i pretty much already have my ticket
which means that everytime they've come to arizona
i've been there.
totally neat, right?
oh yes.

Wed, 05 Apr 2006 01:00:57 GMT

so
fall out boy came
we got to the front
i was 3 people from patrick
& when pete jumped into the crowd
i was 8 inches away
if you don't believe me
that's great
but i was.

i got a clandestine jacket
you know, that red one
that pete always wears.

other than that
this week
& last week
have been boring.

on friday in pe
we played that jump rope game
ice cream soda pop cherry on top
who's your boyfriend lets find out

saturday i went to ari's
& sunday i went to katie's
to work on our macbeth play

we went on monday
and did pretty good i guess

today was testing
it was waste-of-my-time easy.
at least we got out at one

this weekend
is going to be stupid
just like the last one
i have to spend almost all of it
at church.

i finally downloaded the sims
onto my computer
and today arianna & i
made this new town
of rock stars
i know, you're jealous
it is pretty amazing.

tomorrow is wednesday
bleh.

49 days until school is out
including weekends
55 until my birthday
& 61 until pete's :]

oh yeah
arianna & i leave for vacation
in 71 days
yayy

so in february panic! & tai came
and in march fall out boy
now no one is coming
for the rest of forever
and i don't have anything to look forward to
until the end of school
blah blah blah.

Sat, 25 Mar 2006 17:59:24 GMT

so
you're probably dying to know what we did last night
mmmkay

i went to ariannas house and we ate dinner
then we went to lukes
and we walked to safeway and got starbucks
stephen and luke bought these huge bottles of root beer
and carried them around the whole night and never drank them
then we went to blockbuster and rented a movie
then we walked back through lakewood and stopped at this little playground
we played on the swings
and i fell off the swings
stephen kicked his shoes off while he was swinging
and hit arianna in the head
then we went on this little pier thing
and made friends with this fabulous duck
that luke and stephen later killed by throwing stephens coffee into the lake
so then we walked to lagos
and luke slipped going down a hill
and him and stephen showed us the steve dance
then we went to lagos
and a scary truck pulled up
so we hid on the playground
and stephen fell down the slide & hurt himself with a root beer bottle
then we went back to lukes house and watched the movie
it was really stupid so we turned it off
and made kool-aid drinks
stephen put like a million scoops in every glass
it was pretty gross
then we went to lukes room
and then we sat outside
then my mom had to come pick me & arianna up
it was pretty fun
and you're probably jealous you weren't invited
hahaha
<3

Fri, 24 Mar 2006 22:32:47 GMT

just to let you know
you should probably listen to
we are the fury
they're fabulous.

today didn't go as slow
as i thought it would
it was actually a pretty good day

tonight i'm hanging out with
arianna stephen and luke
ohh yay

isn't it funny
how little tiny things
can make an entire day better

storrry:
last night i went to dinner
with my family.
that should be enough to tell you
that it was horrible.
but right when we were done
the table behind us stood up
and there was this boy
who was pretty much perfect
it made me happy.

i'm on the phone with arianna
she's afraid of scary people on the alex
and mexican landscapers.

now i'm listening to brighten
just to let you know

i haven't gotten a new layout yet
i'm kind of too lazy to look for one
i'll probably just take this one off
it's kind of stupid
beep beep?
eh.

i kind of feel like watching
the nightmare before christmas
i think i'm going to put it in

i miss writing book five
it's my favorite so far
arianna should hurry up
so we can start book six
and i can write more
cause its my favorite thing everr

thats about all
i might write later
maybe.

Thu, 23 Mar 2006 23:09:06 GMT

arianna and i took the alex bus home today
it was pretty neat.
then we walked home and now i'm doing this
while she's doing homework

this week has been pretty horrible.

last night i got a new layout
if you haven't noticed
it's eh-ish

it was kind of hot today
but it was nice outside

arianna's desk chair confuses me
i don't understand it

last night at like one
i finally finished chapter six
of book five
which means i'm [finally] done with my part.
now it's arianna's turn.

you probably don't know what i'm talking about
you're probably not going to find out
alright?

i think
that you can be confident and insecure
at the same time.
you might not care what other people think about you
but you still might not be happy with you.

arianna's kind of mean
she offered me food
and when i said no, she flipped out
so i finally asked her to get me apple juice
and she goes "CAN'T YOU GET IT YOURSELF?! I'M BUSY!"

apparently she changed her mind
because she just brought me some.

tomorrow is friday.
i'm making plans for pretty much every second of this weekend
because i'm sick of staying in.

arianna was talking to me
about patrick [oh surprise]
and her sister came out
in a towel
and started dancing behind her
and i started lauging
arianna thought i was laughing at her
"lauren, i'm being serious for once in my life
and you're laughing at me!"
it was pretty funny.

i decided i'm changing my layout
it's icky.

loveme

p.s. the patrick stump remix reminds me
of elevator music. <3